Today seems dull; I wake up with nothing particular to write about. But I feel that I have to at least come up with something. I promised myself to push, and write more. Good luck, a random thought springs: Quarter Life Crisis. I’ve been going through times; I think the title would fit just fine.
I’ll be turning 23 this year. Quite a late bloomer, I haven’t achieved anything in my bucket list. Oh wait; I don’t even have a bucket list! Growing up sucks. I Google the words and head straight to Wikipedia. I’m a Google junkie and computer is my life. I wouldn’t call myself a total Geek/Nerd, but I dream to reach there someday.
“The quarter life crisis” is a period of life usually ranging from the late teens to the early thirties, in which a person begins to feel doubtful about their own lives, brought on by the stress of becoming an adult. The term was coined by analogy with mid-life crisis.”
As I continue reading some expert Erik H. Erikson came up with Intimacy vs. Isolation. According to him, “… after establishing a personal identity in adolescence, young adults seek to form intense, usually romantic relationships with other people.” Crap.
Moving on, studies show that unemployment and choosing a career path is a major cause of stress and anxiety. Bulls-eye! Voila! My crisis.
Family and career are core pillars of life, I believe. I’m still fighting for a career (looking for a job/ trying to complete my university degree) and finding my way about building a family.
I don’t know which of the two bears more weight but I think family runs deeper. It means the world to me what I’ll make of it- who I’ll choose to settle with and what parent I’ll become. I consider them to be the most important decisions a woman will ever make in life and I feel so much pressure trying to get them right.
Well, I haven’t mastered life yet but looking at the much I’ve experienced, the much I’ve learned, I’m glad to have delayed the decision this far. There’s so much to learn about men and the world.
It’s not been easy; I stress most though I’m glad I’m getting through my hard days. I cannot be grateful enough to the people who’ve remained loyal to me through thick and thin. I’m taking my life lessons; I hope I make good stories out of it.
Ambition is priceless, I keep telling myself. One day I’ll strike a balance between the two: Family and Career. I don’t want to be no rich woman without a home. That’s a dream. They say dreams come true and when they do that’s a beautiful thing. So much for my thoughts,
Welcome again to April!
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